Thursday, October 11, 2007
In my own imagination 12:11 AM.
Well well
Time really flies.
Louis and i were discussing about the fun times we had in Sec 1. That's the only honey-moon year we had. After that, complications, arguements, disagreements arises. A cliche i know. Though i procrastinate about school very often, i still can't bear to leave bcos of some reasons. WEll, friends who've helped me and made an impact in my life. Nice people whom i knwo and lived with for the past 4 years. Why cogitate so much? All things must come to an end, won't they? I must learn how to accept things and stop living in the past.
Especially love, whereby i have to be more realistic and not hold onto the idealistic want of having him as my BF. Of course, i wouldn't wanna repeat my 4 years here. I've gone through hard times, good times. More hard times i must say, but although i hate the hard times, upon deeper thinking, i actually grew to know about the bad side of human beings through these experiences.
Yes, i am somebody who explore and think more than normal people does. That's the reason why i get Emo easily because i think too much; negatively.. Recently i've learnt to be more realistic in love. Or rather, i've lost confidence in myself towards love. On Saturday night, i came home with a heavy heart. Thinking of him. And wanting to just simply fking dump him off my life. I cried the whole night about this and well, i dunno if i've gotten over it. Yes, i'm getting carried away., Bcos i can't focus on typing and am crying now. But for one thing i know, i've already set my mind to hate him. He's a bitch. A hypocrite. An imbecile. Vindictive bastard.
I don't even wanna talk to him anymore. He wants me to fuck off, fine, i fuck off his life ( mentally) But i will not stop sanshou at bishan. We'll just train and that's it. No further than that.
Alright, bed time...
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