Saturday, August 11, 2007
In my own imagination 11:36 PM.
Tall? Yeah i'm tall. Standing at 1.84m.
Tall? So what?
My abilities are sufficely insucculent.
Yea, in other words, i suck.
What's wrong with me these days?
Getting emo emo emo.
Studying like a nerd these few weeks.
Looking at some undesirable races with such disdain.
Influenced negatively.
Am i not working hard to excel academically?
I just don't see why God is so unfair.
I have friends who can simply understand in certain topics of a subject by just once or twice read through.
Why am i not borned with such innate ability?
Well, i noe. There're ppl who're much much more unfortunate than i am. But, if God doesn't give me at LEAST, the very least abilities to pursue my goals, then why create me as such an ambitious and inspiring person?
Yea, i'm just a stupid fool. Ppl praise me by saying that i have musical talent. But RUBBISH! I don't possess any innate musical talent. I just work too hard. Very very hard. Like a bull to emulate others. That's why i can progress.
I'm just back from training. I'll be fighting 2 weeks later.
Got owned so badly during sparring.
However, my horoscope today tells me sth which made me feel encouraged and determined.
Today, it's not about winning or losing -- it's about achieving a good compromise.In a current power struggle, you might be focused on winning, but are you really seeing what's at stake? This might be a time when it's not about winning or losing -- it's about achieving the best possible outcome. And when you realize what the best outcome is, you may realize that it's time to stop pushing against your opponent and start working with them. Making a compromise will save you a lot of stress, a lot of time and a lot of energy. You are stronger when you team up with someone.How true is this?
And just now Mikhail said i fought like a GuNiang...Sob sob....
nvm....I'm still young, plenty of time to train.
And after my Os i'm gonna screw myself very badly.
I'm gonna train, to remunerate what i should have. I am gonna barricade myself, lock myself somewhere, meditate and seek enlightenment. Probably go back to my dear dear home town ALONE.
Ok, i'm gonna apply some medicine on my injured leg and go to sleep. Damn, trg tmr ...ARHHH....
Join ME in my imagination. |
