Sunday, August 05, 2007
In my own imagination 1:22 AM.
Didn't you hate me ?
Didn't you want me to fuck off and get out of your life?
Didn't you give me the right to be a debaucherous person and didn't give a fuck about what i do?
Then why the sudden change of your attitude towards me?
You fill me with full of doubts and probing questions which are voraciously and thrusting into my mind.
Pls, can you make things clear with me?
You're always making me so moody over this.
And i'm so soft-hearted and frail hearted to let this kinda matter overwhelm my analytical mind.
Is this my weakness? Emotions always bemuse me. Disable me to think properly.
Then why am i feeling this way towards u?
After a long long 7 months, you suddenly lifted off that disdain which you hv been using to look upon me.
We sparred today.
When i kicked you to a fall, i felt so apologetic and distraction was pulling me off the ground.
I hope that those kicks which you've slapped me with has gave you a chance to learn sth technically.
I seriously feel for you. When my teacher learnt about this, she told me
'' would you dare to tell him directly in his face? If not wake up, forget abt him and get a life" But i'm sorry. I know you hate me, but i'm not gonna leave like that.
I wanna let you know from my mouth that I LOVE YOU so much. I don't fall for anyone so obsessively nor easily.
When i seriously fall for someone, it takes a fetish to alleviate the hurt and pain which falls upon me bcos of it.
What to do? I'm kinaesthetical and sentimental. Emotions always overwhelm my ability to think properly. Call me childish or wadeva. But, when it comes to love and emotions, i just simply can't take it as though i don't feel it and act like a cold-bloody salmon.
When i fell in love with Shiyao, it took me about 2 years to get over it.
Now, although i don't feel the strongness of afinity with him, but at times, the subconscious feeling is still there.
You're the second one to hurt me so much emotionally. You can't blame me for being homo.
I've tried gg with a gal and she hurt me too.
I'm now confused, bemused...
Join ME in my imagination. |
