Thursday, August 23, 2007
In my own imagination 1:02 PM.
The feeling is back again.
The fear of not doing well is here again. Why?
I question myself.
My horoscope had been telling me to organize my schedule well, which i've done so,
and consistently telling me to evade from being paranoid. Ytd's horoscope told me
to be easy on self-criticisms. But i really fear. I really fear tt i can't reach my goals.
Why is being a Singaporean so stressful? Oh GOD! Save me from this excruciating agony pls.
Living in Singapore is just so competitive.
It's either you make it or not.
Why is this so?
People struggling in life, in thier work, in their studies, with their family and friends.
Just to get a better life.
We memorise our work in school over and over again, repetitively. NO life and creativity is encouraged at all.
We have to adhere to indominatable facts and can't argue over it.
In international schs, students do not go according to all these monotonous routines, they study themselves, read up on their own upon natural curiosity.
Can't Singapore do the same?
Well, what's the use of comtemplating so angrily over it now>
I've been following this iron routine for 10 yrs and i have to struggle through for the
last pathetic 2 months.
If i do not excel for O lvls, then too bad, i have to repeat my sec 4 or go to a pte sch.
Touch wood.
Fine, i shall not waste anymore time and start studying now.
BB
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