Thursday, February 15, 2007
In my own imagination 7:10 PM.
I'm very frustrated because of school life...Seriously, being a prefect, cca chairman, student leader, normal student, O level candidate... I mean, all these really fills me with abundant pressure. But, not many students can experience this kinda pressure. In some way or the other, it's a kind of honour, but mostly, it's leading a tedious life.
Yesterday, i had to stay in school from 7am - 6pm..We had to rehearse for CNY performance tmr... And i sprained my back...-_-.... Anyway, my frustration was because of a fellow cca mate called Benjamin. He's sec 5 and 17 yrs old. Since last year, he's been giving me attitute problems and whenevr i talk to him, he treat it as though i'm speaking to the damn wall... Ytd, just because i dropped my costume's belt, and he came screaming at me in front of so many people ''HEY, UR BELT LA!!! IF U LOSE IT U WANTO PAY ISSIT(in mandarin)'' I've already had enough of him.. It really beats me regarding what i did which made him treat me like that... I want to know, i want to ask him..But i felt that there's no use. Because since he always ignore me whenever i speak to him, he wouldn't tell me what is his problem..I just feel that he's deeply immatured, selfish and incorrigible. At that point of time when he lost his anger towards me, seriously i felt like just teaching him a good lesson by beating him upside down and make him bled from head to toe. But i chose myself not to.. So i reacted by saying ''Mine meh?'' .. The reason why i chose not was because i knew, that if i beat him up, it'll bring no good to me..Perhaps it satisfies my ego. But, as a cca chairman, i hv to set a good example and not do such things .. I can simply beat him up if i want to, but if i do so, i'll bring about great disappointment to my cca teacher, who hv high hopes on me.
When we went back to the cca room, i told the other performers i'll be lodging a complain about his attitute and what just happened...And of course many more....This can't go on u noe...I have my pride and authority as a chairman....Who is he to scream at me? He's nth but an immatured brat. My friends told me because he's tired after the practice and rehearsals. For goodness sake, who isn't tired? Who isn't frustrated? It's all about having self-control, patience, tolerance and discipline..Furthermore, he's a student leader himself.. If the others can control theirselves, i don't see a reason why can't he....If he can't even control his emotions, then i don't think he should stand with the leaders during cca practice. He should just be a normal member...Don't you think so?
After i went home, i had to rush for AJ dinner at marina south..While i was on the way home, i was thinking if i should go for the dinner..Because i had simply no mood and furthermore i was very very tired. But after thinking for a while, i thought, why let that incident affect me for what? Tt Benjamin is just a jerk and an incorrigible freak. Why let a freak affect my life? And i've already promised my AJ frens that i will go for the dinner. So i can't PS them just because i felt tired...
I reached the place. I realized there are a few AJs whom i don't know..lol..Total of 9 of us. Then i sat down and started yanking...Then, somebody, returned from the toilet, and faced his left side towards me..He came and told the table of AJs sth. And i looked up...I saw his face..Immediately i recognised him. He's Wilson! haa...My Primary school friend whom he and i was in the same class for 6 Yrs...This yr is our 10th frenshiip year..lol....Little did i expect to meet him there...lol....Anyway, we had a fulfilling dinner,...Honestly, our behavior was kinda conspicuous haa..Many ppl were like staring at us..lol....
I reached home quite late. But after my bath i went to sleep immediately. I didn't want to go to school today. But i know i have to go...If not my form teacher will come calling me...-_-...
I skipped SS remedial because i was seriously tired...lol....
Ok, i shall pen off here...Rmb to tag me..:)
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