Sunday, February 18, 2007
In my own imagination 10:56 PM.
Last night was supposed to be reunion night..Well, for my fmily reunion night just pass by quietly like that..Only my grand uncle and his son came and joined dinner with us..Other than that, the 'reunion' only consisted of Me, my dad, grandma, auntie, maid...Due to the insufficient space available for everyone at the dining table, we have to spilt into two groups for' reunion' ..I sit with my grandma, aunt, grand uncle and his son...Everyone just ate quietly. No atmosphere at all... Well, i haven't experience family warmth kinda atmosphere in my life,...SEriously....
What touched me the most was a small incident which happened between my grand uncle and his son.
At first, the 2 of them were serving each other with dishes....I thought it was normal,...But what seem conspicuous to me was, my grand uncle put a prawn on his son's plate, his son put it back. Then, my grand uncle actually removed the shell of the prawn and put it on his son's plate..This somehow just struck me..It made me feel the love that my grand uncle has for his son...
Mostly, parents of his age, his generation, or rather parents who have children in the middle-age generation, they are alr off society and have no idea of the trends of their childrens ' generation. They have no idea of how to express their love towards their loved ones. So they get more spontaeneous and do so by their feelings..What comes to their minds. Such actions usually touches ppl very deeply, it comes naturally also...
Well, today is the day whereby i get my ang baos.....But seriously not atmospheric... Guest seemed like visitors, and the ang baos which were given to me seem strange and unkind....
Something made me very very unhappy...Early in the dawn, my dad has already started drowning in the depth of the sinister amount of alcohol. WHen guest started flowing in, he reeked of liqour. Which gave a bad start to everyone...It's a culture that when the upper generation give the younger generation angbao, the reciepient's parents are supposed to give back that giver's children...It's a culture... But my dad doesn't do it..I'm not blaming him...He doesnt wanna work when he says he can't find a job...He wants ppl to understand him...But how to? when he contradicts himself by drinking beer early in the morning and showing everyone what an avid and ''enthusiastic' drinker he is....I seriously don't know why he want to waste his life away....Why don't he just go meet his maker instead?
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