Tuesday, February 13, 2007
In my own imagination 5:50 PM.
I've been doing night exercises lately... Desire for a nice body has been appealing to me..I'm starting to dress like an Emo...I just somehow like that kinda style...BTW, i went to Marina Square with my friend Alexis on friday night. To buy a pair of punching pads. Well, other than being sch mates, we're also classmates at a boxing club in Bishan....lol...After getting what we wanted, we headed towards the music cafe called ''AI QIN HAI'' THe drinks are SO ex! The both of us just got ourselves one tea, and it costed us 30 over bucks...OMG...
Anyway, my skit performance during the launch of total defense day was rather succesful should i say.. Well, i'm very proud of it. I wrote it, it went the way i wanted and it brought about great humour among the crowd. A sense of achievement....Although i got some negative feedbacks, whereby some ppl tried to grip me down bcos they were simply jealous that they can't do such jobs like this.. They gave sarcastic remarks and made a childish joke out of it...Well, but so what? I can't satisfy all the people there, can i? It's not disturbing to me, but i just feel tt those ppl who passed sarcastic remarks are really terrible, because they are actually my casual friends....Of course, there were feedbacks whereby it tells me how to improve and stuffs...I'm very receptive to solid and resourceful feedbacks..I'm willing to learn and i want to improve....
Yesterday, i was supposed to have English remedial but i skipped....lol...I was very very tired.....
And, today, during literature period, my lit teacher Mrs Maraan became sadistic again...I mean, i do respect her and admire her because of her amazing teaching and inference skills and the skills which she has..What i hate about her is her attitute of wanting everything to be 100% perfect...What a perfectionist.Plus her sadistic attitute, like making a mountain out of a molehill...U noe, if u didn't bring her textbook, she'll make you stay back after school just to copy the book's contents for 3 hrs. Sadistic...I know she wants us to be well-discipined...But doesn't she feel that this method is rather old-fashioned? And it's no longer that useful nowadays? Whereby more and more students are getting more and more defiant towards teachers... I mean, as the society changes, as human beings we should face up to reality and change too right? It's like, students make up the sea and teachers are the boats. Without students there'll be no teachers to survive...Just like without the sea, boats can't move on water....I really feel that teachers shouldn't be too locked up in the cage of thinking they're forever right...
Back to CCA. As the cca chairman, i hv to take charge of everything from head to toe....It's kinda stressful. I mean, it's worth it too. But, at every places there're some black sheeps lurking and bringing about jeopady and unhappiness...Just like in my cca...Whereby some guys are simply irritating, scheming, having serious attitute problems..Please, u noe who u are...Stop giving me that kinda fucked up attitute whereby when i talk to u u treat it as though i'm talking to the wall...U are a student leader, set a gd example man....I'm your superior and when i give you instructions, it's ur responsibility to follow. If you don't agree with me, you can tell me and suggest...And furthermore, i seldom make decisions on my own..I'm quite a democratic kinda person....I'm not so domineering whereby i make sure everything goes as how i want it to be.And some scheming ppl are causing more and more segragation within the unity....The cca belongs to the whole team of members...Not me alone...And when i ask tt particular person, he just treat it as though i'm speaking to a wall and starts backstabbing me....
Pls, it is fking obvious...Now he's only in secondary sch...When he goes out to work in future and give his boss this kind of fucked up attitute, the boss won't even go up to him or tell him anything...He'll just be told to FUCKED OFF....Without even knowing why. If he doesn't learn it now, it's very hard for him to learn in future...He's alr 17 yr old and still so narrow-minded and immature....haiz....Well, i've done my part as a ''superior'' in CCA..But he refused to even budge or listen a single thing...So be it...In future, 10 years down the road, let's see where are we in society....
I understand that he comes from a family whereby it's not morally stable...But so what? Why did he let it affect him so much? If this little thing affects him so much, this shows that he's a weakling....Incapable....Useless...If he wants to use his weak upbringing as an exuse, den what about me? I come from a more fucked up family than him..
Anw, well, i just hope that this 3 months will go on normally...After term 2, i can officially step down..and theni can concentrate fully on my O levels liao...haa...
Anyway, secondary sch has changed me..Although i hated sec sch, but it changed me into a better and bad-er person....I'm still quite emo at times, but i've seriously changed alot, be it on how i look and my personality...Well, human beings change rapidly...I mean, we always change..Who wants to remain as the same person for the whole of their life? gosh....It's like u playing a game, would you wanna stay as the same character forever? For some games it's inevitable, but u can change the charcter's abilities and style...I just feel tt, we shouldn't worry so much about how much we've changed, so long as we dont' bring harm to others and those who used to love us still love us, and most importantly we know ourselves well and that change is naturally and we ARE ourselves...That's the main and most important thing....
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