Thursday, October 26, 2006
In my own imagination 9:00 PM.
Though exams are over, but stress is still coming on. Not academically. But it's from CCA. Bad things have been happening non-stop. Lost of keys, conflicts, and many many more. It's like, after solving a current problem, another new one will appear before us. Today, we found that something important has gone missing. It's really rediculous to see how such a thing can go missing. I very very sad, very very disappointed with myself. I am really not sure if i should be feeling this way. But, it seems that God doesn't wanna keep us. Things kept on happening repeatedly, again and again, it just went on and on, and these problems seemed like molten lead filling us. I have not a single idea, why is God doing this to us. Does he really wants to see us destroyed?
Next, i got back my report book today. I did rather well, at least i know that i'm among the top 20 in the whole of the level. I came out 7th out of 23 as my class' position. This shows that i've been hard working this semester. Although i did not top the level for any subjects this time, but i am glad that my hard work has finally paid off. It motivates me upon seeing such great improvements. CCA, i got 16 points. Which is already a B3..hehe...But i was supposed to have more, because Mdm Tan forgot to key in the 3 competitions which i took part in , and out of these 3, i actually got prizes for 2 of them. So i should get at least another 8-9 points. By the time, my grading will reach an A1. Which means for L1 R4, i can assure tt for R4 one of the subject, i will score A1, and that's CCA.
Just now, i showed my results to my God-mother. She was angered by what she took in!..What the hell man, just bcos i scored 50+ for overall, which WASN'T EASY, she got so angry. Ok, let me say first, i'm not a clever kid. I don't pick up things that fast and easily. Even music, i'm quite slow. It's just that i've worked hard. And really very hard for the skills which i've achieved today. And my god ma put it in a way that my results are really that disastrous. Please, put aside improvements, talk about the average score for the level, it is LESS than 50. I'm among the better scorers alright. Top 20 in level. And get back to improvements, i've made TREMENDOUS improvements hor. From passing 2 subjs, to now, i manage to pass, and do well for 4 subjs. It's not a miracle, but it really proved that i've worked hard. Still, she got so angry. I just don't understand why. It's getting on my nerves.
It really pisses me off when people start to think that achieving excellency is as easy as said. In the education system, it's made in a way that it's out to kill you. Projects, coursework, theory, practical etc. Once you fail or do badly for one, you can forget about excelling in that particular subj. And once you do badly for one, it'll pull your overall marks down. This shows no recognition for the subjects which students really excelled in. As a result, it demoralises the child to continue working hard, and soon lead to deterioration.
Pissed...pen off now
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