Friday, September 01, 2006
In my own imagination 10:16 PM.
I was a total slacker today. My maid didn't know today is teachers' day and she woke me up in the morning, So fed up. And i woke up at 11am. Slept so soundly. Was practicing my music for hours today....lol....Since it's teachers's day, i went to Thomson plaza to get something for my music teacher.. I bought a box of chocolates. lol...And i wrote a note for her, telling her how much i appreciated her and stuffs...lol...
After passing over the chocolates to her, i went to Thomson plaza and had my dinner.. What a lonely meal. I ate at Burger King all by myself. Everyone there was tagged with their friends.. Haiz...It's alright, i'm used to being a loner.
While eating, i began to think. I came to this Talent agency....sigh.....This place, full of hypocrites, artificialities, bias treatments, favourtisms etc...It was a bad experience for me to some extend. Well, i know that i'm not in the good books of the ''her''. But do i give a damn and bother at all? She's a well known biased person..I know that i can't expect myself to strive through this place. Although i don't get any chance from tt place, but i've indeed learnt alot about the industry. I'm not going to confine myself in this place. It'll take me nowhere...And i also know that, if ever you owe your success to the her, she's going to dominate you. Let me make myself clear, i'll never ever allow anyone to dominate my liberty. I will never. I will listen to genuine advices, and i'll make my decisions with effect from those advices which are really good and true....
Anyway, i've already made up my mind. Now is still not the time for me to strive in the industry yet. So i've decided to stop those activities which i'm having in tt place. Wanna know the reason? Sure
Firstly, in this line, you can only strive by ways like getting into good books of managers and producers, having the X-factor, and having great looks. Or else, you must really be very very skillful. It's just so practical...I have no looks, no X-factor, no style. I have skills, but not very very professional. And some people in there say, i can't make it in the industry. And then despise me. Because i'm not worth their time to groom me and give me opportunities. I know, i have no great looks. That's why. But so what? Do i give a damn? No i don't.
I know myself very well. They think that i've got no potential. Oh , is it? no potential. As a matured person, i know my strength and weaknesses very very well...I still need to brush up on my skills. Yes. I will and i'm really working hard. After my Os, i'll go for competitions. I will prove those shallow and bias scums wrong of what they thought i was. I make sure i create a name for myself in this industry. And make sure they regret what they did and thought. Especially that one, that women, that biased idiot. I will do better than your favourites one day. And it will soon happen. Just watch it.
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